Big Booty Judy

     For those of you who haven't ever seen me in public, my body type is an hourglass. I say people who haven't seen me because in the area where I live it is pretty uncommon to see a person of color, much less one with curves.
   
     I seem to stick out like a sore thumb despite my tries to hide my body shape. I didn't really notice it until middle school. Puberty hit and my athletically built body got some new features. Since then, it has always been a place where I am self-conscious. But I was never one to show "weakness" .

     So in middle school, whenever a friend brought up how "Good my butt looked," I would laugh a little and swing my hips jokingly for a minute. All the while making sure no one saw me acting like that, because that's not who I was. When boys would call me pretty one minute, and ask for nudes the next, I would cry. Then I would pick myself up, and tell my friends the next day while laughing about how pathetic the kid was. People then thought I enjoyed their comments, and made them come more frequently. Little did they know I hated being known as "Big Booty Judy."

     I have come to love my body type and I am working to stay fit to keep this butt of mine in shape lol, however the body I've been given comes with some hardships. Here are some specific problems my curvy girls will understand:




#1:The "Gap"
     No, I'm not talking about the store. I'm talking about the gaping vortex between your back and the waist of the jeans. This happens when the pants (mostly jeans) fit perfectly around your thigh, and rear area, but don't cinch up around your waist line which leaves you with a couple choices. Get the jeans, wear a belt, and suffer all day trying to keep your belt on the fabric and your pants up, Try your hand at a D.I.Y project (like this one: http://secondchancesbysusan.blogspot.com/2013/12/no-more-gap.html), Or you can put the jeans back and wear sweatpants...Again...




 #2: Dresses & Skirts Become Scandalous
     There is nothing more frustrating then finding a FANTASTIC skirt that is your size on the rack, but lacks the fabric to cover your derriere in the back.  I love the "Skater trend", but it seems like an impossible feat to find skirts and dresses that not only look good, but are made of good fabric, AND cover you enough to be seen in public; and if you do find a skirt or dress that fits these categories, chances are you had to get it a couple sizes bigger that what you wear and now struggle with problem #1, or you went to a specialty store and are now handing over your arms and legs.I have yet to find a cure to this problem, but if anyone has any ideas... Lemme know!


 #3: 1 Piece Swimsuit Disproportion Syndrome 1(PSDS)
     For some of us with more junk in the trunk, your top is either bigger or smaller. Meaning that anything you get is either going to be too big or too small for one or the other. I found this problem especially in those cute cutout one pieces like the one on the right. Because it is only one garment it only has one size. While my body is a medium to an extra large! That is quite the gap to try to fill. This too has no solution so far, If I get an XL to modestly cover my tush, then my girls will be falling out everywhere, vice verso, my chest will be covered, but I will have the worst wedgie of my life...Maybe these just were not made for us...


   Last but certainly not least...


Its Always There...Always!
     Many woman who have not been "blessed" with a pear or hourglass shape body talk about how great it must be. It has its perks, but when it comes down to it, at the end of the day they can take of the butt plumping jeans, or the waist trainer. Where as my body is my body, I can't really do anything about it. I have to live with spending a little more time weeding out the pervert guys from the sweet ones. I have to be extra careful what I wear and how I move because there are many ways actions of a curvy girl can be mistaken. I have to know that if you bend down, lay on your stomach, or try to walk past someone in a movie theater seat; you can almost guarantee your assets are being observed... However (As cliche as this sounds), Your booty will always be there for you. Once you become confident in your body, It will become a part of your nature and give you a little bit more "umph" to go out and get what you want.
Like a silent wing man for everything.


When all is said and done I wouldn't change my body for anything.Somehow you forget the problems, the stress and the cost...and realize that your smart, your beautiful,your brave, your confident...
oh! and you just happen to have a killer backside ;)

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Night Owl

     I am a night owl by trade. I can stay awake until all hours of the night before I even feel a "Z" coming on. However I often find myself waking up in the morning regretting the night before.

    The night usually starts off with me trying desperately to find something to fill my time. Maybe feeling a tinge of boredom, or creativity. I jump on the internet to find a tutorial, or comedy video on YouTube. Last night it just so happened I wanted to make some "distressed jeans." It started out well, and I found a lot of good information, but soon I saw a video of a cool makeup tutorial. Thats when the downward spiral begins...

     Somehow I end up on the weird side of the Tube .These videos include pimple popping and giraffes fighting with their necks. Obviously this is not what I was looking for and after noticing this I return to my original search, only to slide over to the "recommended videos" bar. Before I know it, I realize that it is 3 a.m and I have school in four hours. This is a terrible realization that causes me to question if it is even worth it to sleep.  Usually I decide that getting a few hours is better than nothing and go to bed.

    The morning after I've been up late is a curious thing that can go two ways. Either I get up feeling surprisingly spiritedly and start my day looking like I got 12 hours of sleep, Or I drag myself out of bed 10 minutes before I have to be to school, throw on some sweats and get a good messy bun going. Days like these usually end up with me doing some basic makeup in the car, and brushing my teeth at school. (Yes, I have done this)

   No matter how my morning starts, I will inevitably end up feeling the heavy lids setting in around 1:00pm, and anxiously waiting to get home and take a nap.  Upon arrival home I sloth climb the stairs to my room, and plop in my bed to sleep until my body sees it fit to wake up. It always seems to be about 3-5 hours.

    If you have never taken a 5 hour nap, you know what that does to your sleep schedule.I don't feel tired at night, so I begin the cycle again this time PROMISING myself that I will get to bed at a reasonable time. I know this won't happen though because I am a night owl, and I enjoy this sleepy cycle.

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Get to know P.S.

Hey umm, I don't know what to call you guys...

Oh well! Let me introduce myself:
-My name is Patience.
-I live in a small town in a Midwest state.
-I love fashion, music, and all things beauty.
-I love to read
-I pride myself on my creative writing skills
-I am a strong Christian

I guess those are the basics of who I am, but I'm sure your wondering why I started a blog. I decided that I wanted to create a blog when I realized that I have many things to say, and I have the means to say it. I felt that I had something others could benefit from, as well as an opportunity to get rid of some creative energy. This is my way to vent the things that bounce around in my brain all day long. I do have a couple rules however:

1. I will make errors both in spelling and in basic grammar. (It happens to the best of us)
Don't comment! Chances are I already saw it and I am probably kicking myself for it.

2. I will tell you some things about my life that are TMI!
Don't get squeamish if I mention puke.

3. I may be irregular with my posts.
I have a busy schedule and a scrambled brain.

4. My posts may just be rants, but I'm going to tell you how I'm feeling.
Many times strong reactions bring out your honest feelings.

5. I will be COMPLETELY honest with you.
 Sometimes things happen that I would like to hold inside, but it's better to let it out.

So there you go, my " before you read" rules, and "get to know me". I'm running out of things to say...I'm sure this wasn't a very enjoyable post, but it will get better as I get used to it.

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